So, after last week's findings at our OB appt we were scheduled to see a Perinatalogist monday to try and figure out what was going on. To say the least, it was a long weekend filled with uncertainty and anxiety.....not fun. After waiting 45 min. to be have a ultrasound done, another hour to actually do the ultrasound, then another 45 min. waiting to hear from the Perinatalogist, the only news we get is that the Perinatalogist wants us to go see our regular OB/GYN for one more test that same afternoon. After being in the office for most of an afternoon, he wouldn't even tell us the results of the ultrasound before we left.
We leave the office not sure what to think, trying not to assume the worst, and with no indication if things were good or bad, it's not easy to be completely positive. I think's it true to say that pregnancy and anxiety are joined at the hip. We check in at our OB's office and eventually do the 30 min non stress test. By then I couldn't help but think that the Perinatalogist didn't have guts to break us the bad news. After the test we talk with our OB who by then had spoken with the Perinatalogist. First thing out of his mouth, "The babies are fine, the perinatalogist isn't worried at all. The growth might be slightly behind but there's no need for concern. The fetal blood flow looks good." It was great to hear that everything was ok but the relief I felt was tainted with a disdain for the afternoon of uncertainty we were just dragged through. The fact that it could have been completely avoided by a quick conversation at the end of our previous appt. didn't help. One minute could have changed 30 min. of hell into just another appt- happy to do it knowing the babies are ok type of attitude.
We grabbed some comfort shakes from Sonic and returned home and that was that- glad that the day was a little closer to being over and relieved by the fact that Carly's 2 weeks shy of being full term. Funny thing is that we're just getting started............ Props to all you parents. Looking back now that it's been a couple days, the event seems trivial compared to the comfort of knowing that the twins are doing well. The "end all" means everything.